AND why should I TELL YOU WHAT MY PLANS ARE WHEN  you never TELL ME YOURS!!!! Is this EVEN FAIR!!!! I HATE TO TELL PEOPLE MY PLANS cause I NEVER DO!!!! CAUSE YOU DONT EVEN ASK!!!!!! YOU SEE……. ANOTHER EXCUSE JUST to blame ME!!!!!!! SHOULD I TELL you when I’m going to change my UNDERWEAR !!!!! I GOING TO FUCKING DO MY WORK NOW. BETTER NOT DISTURB ME or i will BLOW UP !!!!!!!

This is so annoying. Staying with my sibling is like having fucking 100000000000000000000000000 mothers nagging at you. So fucking ANNOYING.  I HATE STAYING WITH PEOPLE WHO CAN’T STOP NAGGING on and on and on. SHOULD HAVE FORCED my mum to let me stay in the city. YOU think i’m so FUCKING FREE. I have FUCKING 7 ESSAY to hand in this month 7 ESSAYS!!!!!!!!. I’m not like you OK!. WHEN I COME BACK FROM UNI i still HAVE fucking loads of work to do. You SAID that i TOLD you last minute. HOW ABOUT YOU, You also told me last minute! NO DIFF!!!!!!!!STOP blaming others!!!!!! DON’T PUT A CROSS on everyone!!!!! WHEN you are the crossed one, yourself!!!!!! YOU remind me OF SOMEONE SIMILAR!!!!!!!!!!. SO SO SO SO SO SO FUCKING ANNOYING. I ALREADY HAVE SO MUCH THINGS IN MY MIND and YOU WANT TO STUFF IT WITH MORE STUFF. ARGHHHHH……….. AHHHHHH!!!!!!!! AND THANKS for SPOILING MY MOOD when I’M about to FUCKING DO MY WORK. THANKS.!!!!!!!!  

I hate it when your day is not what you thought it might be in a bad way. Yes! today was such a fucking bad day. I partly blame the fact that I’m staying in the suburbs and partly its because of me. Staying in the suburbs is the most inconvenient shit ever. let me tell you why. Cause you have to fucking use the public transport to go to the city or anywhere. So for taking the public transport you have to do some extra work, LIKE going to the bus stop 10 – 15 minutes early, and with that you have to wake up 30 min early and with that you get less sleep. Hence i have to fucking wake up an hour early. And sometimes the bus doesn’t are not always on time and i have to wait another 15min and sometimes it leaves early. THEREFORE i will miss my class and gym classes. SO what is the fucking point of planning things when things don't work the way they are. And so my sis gave a lecture of how i always don’t plan what i do. You see big sis, the reason why i don’t plan is that it doesn't WORK. I never believed in planning ever since i was young cause every time i plan, shit things just comes and my plan just don't feel like a plan anymore. ARGH…..don’t want to type anymore.

Yes yes i am back blogging. Have been super busy since the last post. Tons of assignment and have to go through end semester exams. This sem i took 4 psychology subject which is a NO!!NO!! combo cause i though i was smart enough to handle all four subjects with total of 5 essay comprising 2000 words and four 2 hour exams. Don’t think i will do well for my exams though.Oh well…..it’s over now and i have a month holiday which i don’t even know what to do. Might do some bartending and coffee making classes. Much has happen since my last blog. Sad moment and happy moments. But mostly happy ones. I’m happy that i form a new level of friendship with my friends.I’m happy i went shopping the other day! thanks C-ny pooh….for driving us there. I’m happy that graduation is in less than 6 months. I’m happy that my family is doing fine. I’m happy that my friends are happy. I’m happy that my friends are more understandable. I’m sad that some of my fiends are leaving. I’m sad that I’m false(i do feel that sometimes, even though i am not) I will try my best to be me. I’m sad that i think i’m weird (hence the previous statement). I’m sad that i did not put 100% to understand my friends (sorry!). I’m sad that i’m crying now (no lah, metaphorically lah). I’m sad i never know my family better (sorry again!). I’m sad that things never turn out what i wanted it to be. Ok so not really mostly happy things but also sad. Maybe equal. I’m just being random in this post cause i really don’t know what to post. Mean while just a intro into my thoughts and where is my life is heading. Till than take care. Bye .

Yes, I just turned 21st, the road to adult hood. I had my 21th birthday party at Courtyard Garden near my place. Felt a little weird about having a birthday party because i never had one before. Not that i don’t celebrate, I do, but not in a big scale. You see i am quite a shy guy. So i don’t really socialise unless the person approaches. And i normally celebrate my birthday separately. I celebrate my Chinese birthdate(CHAP GOH MEH) with my family and my real birthday with my friends.So its a total different environment. Anyways the total guest was like 80+. Yeah i know i am so pops. Hahahahaha…..Actually i invited only 11 of my friends to come, The rest were my dad friends and family. So i kind of got the advantage of receiving lots of birthday ang-pows and presents and that a plus. Ok moving away from all the descriptive stuff, I think i actually had fun and happy having the party. It was not because of the present  i receive (partly) but the people who were there, who celebrated the most important date in my life with me and especially my family. I had never been so close to my family before. I hugged my parents and sibs which i never do that at home. Maybe it was just the alcohol talking. But this is what I always searched for ever since i came back for holiday. The closeness and belongingness feeling. Don’t get me wrong, I am not say that my parents deliberately ignoring me or deserted me or something like that. They do love me. It’s just interesting to know that showing a little more love and care can change the dynamics of a family. Imagine you tell your parents you that you love them every night you go to bed or out to meet a friend. I think that would really change the family relationship in a good way. Ok it’s the family man in me talking right now. All I'm saying here is that it doesn't hurt to say comforting words to loved ones and that is what I’m trying to do. Here are some pictures of my birthday party. Enjoy.

My cake. Cousin made this for me. Thanks Kim

My Family. Love you guys……

My lovely friends. Love you guys too…..

My pretty MUM…..

Me Bro and Daddy

Me 3 lovely sisters….. (the other sis in aus)

My presents…..(Thanks Guys)

My new PHONE X1

Oh yes and the WINES……(THANKS CHEN.Too lazy to take pic lah have to go down stairs.)

Yeap! you guys must be thinking what kind of title post is this and what am i typing. Well this is one hilarious situation happened yesterday when my mum did some prayers. My mum was worried about the weather as it just rained heavily and might rain again later. So my mum asked my uncle to check the weather around my area before setting up the offerings. But my uncle doesn't know the number, so he asked me to call the operator  to find out the number of “CUACI CUACA”. I was a little hesitant to call as the name sound so wrong but i did anyway.

OPERATOR: Hello can i help you!!!

ME:Can i have CUACI CUACA number please

O:APA?? CUACI CUACA??? Hold on please. let me check!!!

After 3 minutes

O:Sorry sir it’s not in the database. Can you please spell it out.

M: C-U-A-C-I CUACA

O:SIr i think you are looking for KAJI CUACA!!!

M: Looks at uncle “is it KAJI CUACA!!!!”

Uncle laughs. There goes my uncle. Always giving me the wrong information. Yeap was little embraced. Anyways i am off to  Hong Kong in another 5 hours. Weeee…. can’t wait to go shopping.Till then. Tata……

I’m having pretty good day today. Went to the gym and meet with my trainer to take my last measurements after 10 sessions of training and guess what i put on 1KG. Well obviously it’s not because i ate too much, the 1 KG came from my muscles. Weee……. finally some results. my chest, bi and triceps gained like a few cm and I lost some fats, therefore losing some inches on my waist. I did not feel that i lost weight though cause every time i wear my jeans it gets tighter and tighter. Going to take more lessons from my trainer….

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I was talking to my friend the other day and he was going through his usual deep thoughts and told me that he feels rather awkwardly sad (well he did not say he was sad but i could feel some tension there). You see my friend here likes to think a lot, mainly about his possibilities in his future studies, work,love life and etc. Not that its a bad thing to do It’s just who he is,likes careful planning. Should learn from him once in a while to plan my life properly, It’s in a mess right now. Anyway Knowing that this year is going to be our final year at Uni (for some of us) he was talking about how we are going separate ways after that (wow time really flies).And what he was said really struck me “ME! FINAL YEAR! and then WORKING” I just did not realise how time pass by so fast with a blink of an eye and i just don’t have the time to plan what i really want to do with my future. I keep telling everyone that I'm going to continue what I'm doing but I'm still not sure if it the right one. I’m the type of person who gets really bored easily. My mum always calls me  “SAM FAN CHUNG YIT TOE” when translated literally  “3 minutes hot”, which means that i would only play (say basketball) for only 3 minutes and i will never touch the ball again which is quite true and FYI i still play basketball occasionally. I’m pretty interested in doing fashion but knowing me a “3minute hot” i might run out of interest in no time. So I’m just going to let time shape my future (that is what all the lazy people say).Oh this reminds me of my Math Teacher back in secondary school who keep drilling the saying “time waits for no men” into our head and i guess it worked.Time don’t wait for you while you are taking shower or a poop (pooping takes time ok, so think twice before you poop). Time don’t care who you are. They just walk pass you even though you are the kings of kings. And so i am going to give my self a big kick to my butt and tell my self i need to wake up and fix this (my legs can’t rich,too bad. will try it some other time). Oh yes before i go thanks to my dear friend who reminded me that I'm in my final year. Bye…..

It’s 3 freaking am and i can’t just sleep yet cause i ate nasi kandar and roti canai two hours ago. I have just wasted my 2 hours gym today.I need to stay awake long enough for the food to be digested. If not i will become FAT!!!!! So while my food is digesting i will post a short update. My friends and i went to Haagen-Daz (i’m not going to tell which branch after they come after me) and they have the world dumbest waitress there.

This is what happend:

Friend: How much is your single scoop

Waitress: Oh Actually now we have promotion buy 2 scoop get 1 scoop free

F: Oh, how much is a single scoop?

W: Normal price lor…

F:So how much is it?

W: (and finally gave the price)

Seriously which part of how much does she doesn't understand. By the way a single scoop is RM16 + which i think is   so freaking expensive. After that we watched IP MAN today with my friends who is going back to UK today. I actually watched it already but i don’t mind watching it the 2nd time after all it’s quite a good movie.

After the movie, we went to KAYU for supper. Yum…. and then went back home. On the way home from there was a road block and i stopped the car in front of the police. Was kind of excited actually. Never had a road block in m’sia before. Hahahaha….  .The first thing he did was stare at me, to see if my face were red and then put his face close to the window to smell if i had alcohol around me. With disappointment he asked me where i was heading and so i said “balik rumah lah” (going home) and let me go. Better luck next time suckers…….Getting sleep will update next time. Bye…..

I was just watching MTV channel and i stumble across this reality TV programme called EXILED. It really funny and interesting to watch. This show is basically about, sending your spoiled daughter or son to some exiled place where they have to live with the indigenous people for a week. First the parents will surprise their kids at home with all the camera and production crew getting ready for their kid to come home with their Bentley. The kid comes in the house thinking that it’s some surprise birthday party and then the parents drops the bomb. They were told that they have to go to some exiled place (e.g Panama/ Mongolia) and when i mean exiled it’s really exiled. They have to stay in houses and tents that are made from woods and leaves and sometimes cow poop. Poor thing. I don’t think i can stay in that kind of environment And they have to follow their everyday routines and customs. Knowing that Spoiled brats do nothing at all, it really contradicts their life style from being lazy to hard work everyday, finding food to chopping down giant trees and carving them into boats.Gosh….that is really hard work. I don’t think i will be able to do that and surprisingly these people did go through all the hard work and gain some good experience. This really kept me wondering how a small push could change what you think and your lifestyle. There was one girl who was so touched with her experience, actually donated all her earning to the tribe she was appointed too (she was selling jewelleries to earn extra cash). So nice of her, but i don't know if it true knowing MTV have some of the fakest reality TV show. Oh well it’s just fun to watch. I don't mind going if i had the chance to go. They should make an EXILED ASIA. Hahaha anyways going out now. will post another time.BYE….. 

After posting a really depressing and angry post i decided that I'm so not going to care whatever they do. I will let them do whatever they want and let them handle their consequence themselves. I’m just so exhausted and drained thinking about it. I think i was at the verge of getting depression and i just could not function properly. But after giving such excruciating thought It’s not worth going through that path. I just want to do my part and live my own simple life and have my own family and friends to enjoy with. I think it’s just too hard and complex to handle the dynamics of the problem. Maybe this is what i really need, to learn from the mistakes of the past and to never do it again in the future.

It just that sometimes things are not just the way you want it to be or hoped for. And maybe that this is just part of life. The need to experience suffering and pain in order to carry you on further and even make you stronger person. What if this is not the case. You may be beaten down until you are emotionally drained and never get up. Is this where your friends and family pick you up and tells you  it’s alright and and start over again. I know i am talking lots of crap here but all i just want say that i really appreciate what i really have now my family, my friends and my memories of the good times and bad. That’s all and thanks to those  people who commented on my previous post and words of encouragement. Really help me think through things. BYE!